About Me

I'm adventurous, sincere, and loyal. I am in love. I am deeply spiritual. I find happines in "the little things". I love the sunshine and the rain. I cry when I am sad and when I am happy. This is my blog.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Books, books, books

So.... I haven't really gotten much farther on "Woman Who Peed", those of you who know probably aren't surprised... I have a problem with self motivation. I will get chapter one done by the end of next week though.. Promise!!!
In better news; Kelli Burke-Gabossi and I have begun a collaboration on a new book! It doesn't have a title yet, but it will be something along the lines of "Mean Things Men Do and How to Get Even." It's a revenge handbook. :) I think it will be very funny! Let me know if you have any ideas for it and we'll give you credit in the acknowledgements and/or on the page your idea is on if we decide to use it!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Writing Journey

Okay, it's happened. I've decided! I want to be a writer. Now, I know, I know, it's pretty hit and miss for authors and I don't know if I'll "hit". But I love writing! (You can't tell by how often I update this blog, but it's true).
I'm in the middle of writing my first book and I already have ideas for more! When I decided to write "The Woman Who Peed on the Floor" I thought it would be my only book, but I guess it's like tattoos: even before the first one is finished you start thinking about the next one. For now I'm just trying to get this first one done by the summer. I already have a publisher lined up and expect to be signing the contract soon!!! Check out http://www.revolutionpublish.com/
"The Woman Who Peed on the Floor" is a non-fiction novel about domestic violence and role reversals, particularly between mother and child.
"When a mother chooses not to fill a parental role someone else must. The child intuitively understands this and attempts to the fill the viod himself without having the knowledge or life experience to know how it's actually supposed to work."
-The Woman Who Peed on the Floor, exerpt from the rough draft

I've completed my final outline and have started my first draft. Stay tuned for sneak peeks!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

New Career Path... again....

So, volunteer coordinator is out. Probably.
I've just started working on an Elementary Education degree so I can teach Elementary School music. I don't really know if I want to do this so much, but it's the most appealing option for me right now. The thing that is annoying is that I have to go through the whole damn elementary ed program just to teach music. I would say that so far, just in the intro to education class, only about 25% of the information will apply to me.
Very frustrating.
But... I'm also working on a book. I have the first half of a rough outline done already. The book is going to be called
"The Woman Who Peed on the Floor (And other women who should not have been mothers)"
I know... kinda wordy, but it will mostly just be called "The Woman Who Peed on the Floor" so that's not so bad.
It will highlight three or four people in my life and their experiences with their mothers. It's pretty much about the damage that is done to a child when their parents expect them to take care of them so they can continue to act like children.
I would be completely okay with my book getting famous and not having to work at all... just saying.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

5 months later...

I've been married for five months this Thursday :) Here is my list of reasons this is awesome:

*I am a wife!
*I cook real food about 3 times a week and most of the time it is even good!
*Henry comes home to the same place I live!
*Someday I will have 1/4 black babies!
*I get to be a hostess!
*Church group comes to my house!
*I get to sleep in the same bed as Henry every single night!

Last night Scotty and I read a book together.
A list of my favorite quotes:

"I don't have to wait until I die to start seeking a Great Perhaps."

"Stop stealing other people's problems and get some of your own."

"She smiled with all the delight of a kid on Christmas morning and said, 'Y'all smoke to enjoy it. I smoke to die.'"

"I wanted to be one of those people who have streaks to maintain, who scorch the ground with their intensity."

"I may die young, but at least I'll die smart."

"Jesus, I'm not going to be one of those people who sits around talking about what they're gonna do. I'm just going to do it. Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia."

"Sometimes you lose the battle. But mischief always wins the war."

"DO NOT OBJECTIFY WOMEN'S BODIES!"

"Nothing's wrong. But there's always suffering."

"It's nice to have people who will feel guilty for you."

"We are all going."

"I loved her present tense."

"Damn it, how will I ever get out of this labyrinth?"

"I am going to take this bucket of water and pour it on the flames of hell, and then I am going to use this torch to burn down the gates of paradise so that people will not love God for want of heaven or fear of hell, but because he is God."

"When you stopped wishing things wouldn't fall apart, you'd stop suffering when they did."

"We had to forgive to survive in the labyrinth."

"I believe now that we are greater than the sum of our parts."

"We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken."

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Career Path

I only have one week left of my current job. For the next week I am the 4-H Summer Science Camp Director. I really love little kids. But I have discovered that I am not cut out for 15-20 of them at the same time. I could never be an elementary school teacher. It's good that I know this because I was considering going into elementary education for a while there.
Lately, I have been thinking about a career in a service organization. I love World Vision and some others. I think I would love to be a fundraising or volunteer coordinator for an international service organization.
My new job is working for the Boy's and Girl's club here in Price. Training starts on the 16th. It's a Vista position so I get a scholarship when I've finished out the year. I will be working directly with the kids but I will also be managimg a grant. This is very exciting to me because if I don't absolutely hate it, it will open up all kinds of possiblities in the world of service organizations :).
I am super excited for the Pre service orientation training and for this job to start!!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Perfect Moment, Perfect Day



Here is the most perfect picture from my wedding so far :) Megan took it.
I haven't seen any of the ones that Luke took yet, I have high hopes.
But Megan is obviously amazing :)

I'm Married!

I got married on Friday!!
I'm pretty excited about it.
That's all.
:)

Friday, May 28, 2010

Asleep

Sing me to sleep, I'm tired and I want to go to bed. Sing me to sleep and then leave me alone. Don't try to wake me in the morning cause I will be gone. Don't feel bad for me. I want you to know deep in the cell of my heart I will feel so glad to go. Sing me to sleep, I don't want to wake up on my own anymore. Sing to me. Don't feel bad for me, I want you to know, deep in the cell of my heart I really want to go. There is another world, there is a better world. There must be.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

My letter to Charlie: inspired by charliesfriend.blogspot.com

Dear Friend,

I, like most everyone, am both happy and sad and I am still trying to figure out how that could be. Usually I am more happy than sad, and honestly, I think that happiness and sadness are both beautiful in their own ways. When someone's eyes fill with tears, just before any water actually leaks out; I think that is very beautiful. I think the feeling of sadness is a little beautiful. But I also think that being happy is beautiful. Maybe that is why I sometimes think that being very happy and being very sad feel a little bit the same.
Lately I have been more sad than happy though. And I know a lot of reasons for that. I wont get into them; I'll just say that sometimes I think I might need a little help. Once I had a therapist. But she didn't say anything helpful really except that I should find something to help with my anxiety and it didn't have to be the same as what anyone else does. But she didn't help me figure out what to do... a Hindu temple worker and yoga instructor taught me.
Now I just feel very tired though. I haven't slept much the last few days. Maybe tomorrow I will just sleep all day. But I always feel yucky when I do that. I just wish I had more things to do so I didn't feel so useless.
Anyway, I just made plans for Halloween, which isn't for another five months, but these plans are epic and I think I will continue to be excited for them throughout the next five months. On that note, I think I will leave now. I like to leave things on a happy note.

Love Always,
Jenna

Thursday, May 20, 2010

What girls are really saying.

I'm sure you've been in a situation where two girls you know are in the same place. You happen to know that these two girls can't stand each other. They are forced into the same circle at some point and girl 1 turns to girl 2 and says something along the lines of "Wow, you look really pretty today." The other girl looks taken aback but quickly composes herself before responding, with psudo-humility, "Oh, thanks. You do too." Then they ignore each other. Both girls are radiating tension and haughtiness.
Why?
Why are they seeming so keyed up when the conversation was so obviously pleasant?
Why, if they dislike each other so much, did they even compliment each other in the first place?

Because they didn't REALLY say what everyone heard them say. Most girls, even the ones guilty of the above exchange, don't know what was really said, other than sub-consciously. But, if you could hear the undertones of the conversation, and what both girls were sub-consciously thinking, feeling, and trying to convey, it would have sounded something like this:

Girl 1- "I dislike you very much and I'd like you to notice that I look very pretty right now."
Girl 2- "Oh yeah? I dislike you as well, and you don't look as good as you think you do."

Think about it ladies, most of you have been in this situation. Even if you were passing this girl on the stairs or bumped into her at a restaurant. You usually don't speak to her, but a mutual friend was with her or your boyfiend's are buddies or something, so on this occasion an exchange of words was called for.

I would like to think that girls have the ability to be genuinly sweet, kind, forgiving, and sincere. But the sad truth is that even if we do possess these qualities some of our tendancies are vidictive, manipulative, and caddy.

There are plenty of girly double-speak examples out there. I hear them all the time. Occasionally, (although I hate to admit it) they even involve me. Listen for them in the future, you'll be amazed.